-Rain Drops-

It RAINED! Thank heavens it rained! the lack of rain has kept many from watering their lawns, and me from filling up my pool. I hope it rains just a bit more.

Tomorrow grandma is going back to PR... I am sad, because it is only when she is here that my family is relatively normal. She keeps mom in one piece. I will miss her and her grandma jokes (in the past years she has developed a pretty awesome sense of humor!)

I went to see a newly built house today. Beautiful. I want a house of my own so badly. Hardwood cherry floors, 2 stories, 1 master, 2 bedrooms, 2 full bathrooms, 1 guest bathroom, kitchen, dining room, formal dining room, TV room with fireplace, nice front porch, nice back yard, 2 car garage. OMG it was beautiful. I want it!

I took a family relations course this summer, learned so many things and made me think about the things I want.

-I don't want a big house
-Don't want an expensive car, my focus will do just fine
-I want to get married at or after 25
-I don't want to have children immediately...
-I prefer marriage to pre-marital cohabitation
-I still want a Labrador
-I worry about moving far from mom and dad, but I do NOT want to stay in TN
-I don't like it in TN
-I prefer VA's organization and advanced development to the stage of growth TN is under right now, though cost of living is high in VA...
-When I move away from home, I want to visit mom and dad frequently
-I have realized how dangerous the world can be, but do not believe in sheltering myself and hiding from the good things the world has to offer, because of the risks and dangers.
-I am a social person, but prefer to stay at a distance and not feel responsible for people who will not devote themselves to my well-being as much as I would to theirs. (Too many times already)
-I want to grow up, but not lose awe in the good things in life, I want to keep believing that good will overcome evil in the big scheme of things.