Horoscopo 2007

Leo

Se estimula el potencial de noviazgos para los solteros y se reenciende el fuego en parejas unidas por muchos anos. Jupiter te hara ese regalo sentimental hasta el 19 de diciembre de 2007 que ingresa en Capricornio. La socializacion se acentua y tendras muchas horas de placer y nuevas aventuras. Programate dese enerao para un ano colmado de sorpresas, cambios, y existos en lo que tu conceptuabas perdido. Jupiter en fuego te protege, te bendice y te colma de buena suerte. Laboraras desde el corazon y ganaras la simpatia y el apoyo de muchos. Tu fortaleza mayor sera tu espiritualidad. Estudiaras, leeras, asistiras a conferencias y seminarios y seguiras superandote cada dia mas. Los aspectos mas importantes en el 2007 son tu espiritualidad, tu labor artistica y profesional, tu vida sexual y tu transformacion personal. Prestaras mayor atenciona tu cuerpo, a tu imagen publica, y a tu salud mental. Estaras mas fuerte para enfrentar retos y vencerlos. Los eclipses haran que mueran o desaparezcan sombras que nublan tu alma. El 2007 exige mayores responsabilidades, orden, organizacion y mayor disciplina. Como rey o reina del zodiaco, enemigos gratuitos, competidores y envidiosos no faltaran. Enviales bendiciones y destruyelos con tu amor. Se impecable al hablar de ti como de familiares y amigos. Todo lo nocivo que hables sera un "boomerang" que te afectara destructivamente. Habla por experiencia propia y no por lo que te han dicho. Todos los leones han pasado por un ciclo de traiciones y desenganos y ahora en el 2007 llega tu recuperacion. Alguien del cigno de agua (Cancer, Escorpio, o Piscis) te devuelve la fe en el amor. Todo leo con hijos se sentira orgulloso de ellos. Exitos, curaciones, promociones, titulos, casamientos, todo puedo ocurrir en beneficio de hijos y nietos.

Neptuno continua en tu oposicion, o sea, en Acuario. Neptuno entro en tu mansion de uniones y matrimonios en 1998. Neptuno te enfrento a infidelidades, enganos, promesas falsas, pero ya te has recuperado y no volveras a repetir los errores del ayer. Febrero, junio, y agosto seran meses claves en tu nuevo processo de vida. Considera todo lo ocurrido como una experiencia de aprendizaje. Examina las credenciales antes de consultar un professional, tales como un abogado, contador publico, asesor financiero, o personal medico. Pluton en su ultimo ano es Sagitario estimula tu poder personal. Neptuno en Acuario toca tu ser interior mas tierno y sentimental, mientras se estimula una conexion espiritual con tu pareja. Este periodo sera para ti, uno de los mas romanticos de tu existencia. Saturno, el planeta del Karma y el temido por muchos, entra en virgo, tu mansion de riqueza. Espera gratas sorpresas en lo economico. Saturno te educara en la economia del tiempo, de la energia y el dinero. La Divinidad te dotara de un talento especial para saber donde invertir tu dinero y multiplicarlo.

En salud tus puntos volnerables son la espina dorsal, la espalda, la ansiedad de saber mil cosas en poco tiempo. Paraliza el reloj de la prisa y ve lentamente hacia tu destino. Practica pilates, yoga, ejercicios aerobicos, y sobre todo camina. Recuerda siempre que no hay mejor ejercicio que el caminar. En el amor, te aseguro que acabaron las tragedias. Se acabo el ingenuo y tonto que creia todo lo que le decian. No creas nada hasta que lo hayas experimentado por cabeza propia. Te cuidaras mucho de regalar tu amor a quien no lo agradeze y se aprovecha de ti. Aunque tengas panico en viajar en aviones, el ano 2007 te depara viajes que te convienen realizar. Uran en tu opocision te enfrentara a seras raros, extranos e impredicables, pero tu ya estas perparado para todo. En el 2007 resurges a una nueva vida.

Pensive

I hope you had a great christmas you guys :)

Well, I am not sleepy, I am not tired... I guess right now, I am feeling bored and in a writing mood. I feel detached. I don't know when I got so bad at keeping up with you. I wanted to wish you a merry christmas, but somehow, I'm always late.

I'm hoping I spend new years on a more cheerful note. I'm hoping for some peace. I know, you must be thinking, "what kind of things can possibly go on in the life of a 19 year old? You're so dramatic." Atleast that's what mom says. But hey, people experience the world differently...

I think, I have grown so much just this past year. I think I've let go of everything in my past that was weighing me down. I think I am happier in that aspect. I can look at Carlos and smile, knowing that he is happy and where he should be. I can think of KB, and I won't break down anymore. I can sit in the room with mom and dad and open up to them, without feeling overwhelmed. I can accept Jorge's opinions without arguing. I have once again let myself into the world, I've met people, I've made friends, I've gotten out of this house and tried new things. I am proud of myself.

I know people, who've lost someone they said they "loved", and the only thing they thought of was revenge. They thought of themselves. And I know this, when you trully love someone, no matter what, you never want or try to hurt them. Ever. Sometimes love isn't the way you want it to be.

Sometimes I do feel down. I feel sad. But none of me, wants to give up. I've kept going, and I've learned something. Life is worth living.

Enganame, olvidame, que le importa al corazon,
Si mi amor esta afirmado para ti, sin condicion,
Castigame y mienteme, te confieso me da igual,
Hace tiempo ha decidido mi corazon a quien amar,
No importan tus amores, no importa tu pasado,
Tus pequenos errores ya los he perdonado,
Mucho antes de pecar.
Ya no hay nada que hacer
Yo naci para amarte,
Y amarte sin final,
Algun dia lo se,
El caudal desbordado de tus aguas llega al mar,
Nadie va a detener el impulso de amar que me dicta el corazon,
Yo naci para amarte,
Yo naci para amarte,
Mas alla de la razon.

Despues al fin, aprenderas a aceptar mi corazon,
Si el amor es verdadero no se rinde ante el dolor,
Te esperare no importa cuanto, me hieras sin piedad
El destino esta marcado,
Seras mio y nada mas.

Y no hay nada que hacer,
Yo naci para amarte,
Y amarte sin final
Algun dia lo se
El caudal desbordado de tus aguas llega al mar,
Nada va a detener este impulso de amar
Que me dicta el corazon,
Yo naci para amarte
Yo naci para amarte,
Mas alla de la razon

HI :)

Well... after much worrying, I finally have my grades.

This semester was probably the hardest I've ever been through. I started off so enthusiastically... Then I made a complete nose dive toward F-dom. And by some sort of miracle, after huge effort towards the end, I MADE IT! Sure, this was my worst semester in college, but I've had worse. I'm not proud of my grades, just relieved that I pulled through. Next semester, I promise myself, that I'll make the dean's list again. I realized that no matter what, no matter how much of a drag it seems... I have to keep on goin'... For me.

My grades are as follows:

Design Fundamentals- C
Professional Writing- C
Western Humanities II- C
Concepts and Applications of Health and P.E- C
Cultural Geography- F (UGH)

I'm no longer on probation atleast, (meaning I won't be kicked out :D) I survived my first semester in a university :P It looks like I am going to graduate on time after all. I've got 38 credits toward my major out of 123... 44 total. I hope this is the worse semester I'll have :S My gosh I'm nervous. Yes I know, long way to go... But Less than 100 to go.

Well anyway... I'll stop borin ya with numbers and letter now ;)

PS- I hope you like the pics. 6 days til the night before xmas people! I hope you're enjoyin the holidays :) Love ya lots :}

Zuli

Here are the pics I said I'd post :)

Overview of the house

(hard to see I know)
8 Tiny reindeer, and rudolph
cousin Margie and Santa
(I got shocked with the lights on the floor lmao)
Roger admiring our lopsided christmas tree lol
Tonsil-less Yadi, Margie, and my hobo Churi
SURPRISE, You're on Zuli's camera

Frostee :D
Santa and his candy canes
Snowboarding in winter wonderland...

(on pine needles, not snow )
Off they go, in a blizzard of decorative spheres

Momma and baby deer...

That's my little tree :D

"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same" -

Totally out of character. What happened to the me who never took anything from anyone? I used to stand so tall, I used to stand up for myself. And one morning I woke up, and I saw in the mirror a weak little girl who brought me down and wouldn't leave me alone. But no more. That girl is dead.

And it may take time to change. I didn't choose this path. I didn't choose this disappointment. It was chosen for me. And I won't linger anymore. I deserve so much more than this disillusion. And with this new year... I'll welcome a new me. I'll be my new love.

I'll go wherever the current may take me...

Update

OK... Long time no post. Been hectic people lol, time goes by too fast when you need it to just stop for a while so you can git r done.

Well, I LOVE MY NEW JOB. I work at a "sandwich" place near school. It's awesome. My 3rd day at work, Im already ringin sales and laughin and playin around with everyone else :D Hopefully I can save up some $$$$ so I can do as I please with it :) I can't stress how bad I felt taking so much money from papi.

WEeEelL... I'm off to ship my old laptop back to dell, spend time with the papi, and it's a beautiful day here in the Tennessee valley, so I think I am goin out to play ;)

Hope you all are doin well :) I know I haven't been an active blogger or "myspace-er" lol. Sorry about that... Enjoy ur weekend, I iz OWT!

<3 Me

Drained

My life, I've concluded... is more dramatic than a soap opera...

I feel like there is just so much going on, I can only try and zone out...

*sigh... Abuelita Nene is weak with cancer... Her surgery will determine life or death. She said she'd come live with us if she makes it through... And it broke my heart, what she said after... That if she didn't make it, she'd go to the moon and find out if it's really made of cheese. Or to jupiter so she could sit among the stars... I haven't seen her in so long, and I'd been angry with her for so long... I faded from her life for a while... pero en sus ojos, todavia soy su Reinta Mora.

Tia is recovering from a stroke and now has an infection of some sort and on top of that is paralyzed. Tio's in an institution, after having killed his lover and tried to kill himself. Meri, my cousin is borderline heart attack, she is trying hard to take care of Tia, but she has issues at home in Fl and isn't really healthy to begin with.

Grandpa has an ear infection and is really sick and can't even walk... Spends his day puking. Mom and dad are both in PR trying to help everyone, and they are exhausted.

Grams and Gramps refuse to move up here. But PR is more and more crumby as the years go by. It's no place to live. It's hard to take care of them when they are so far away...

I'm almost 95% sure that I failed geography class. And it's my fault my sis isn't graduating when she wanted to.

Nothing... seems to be working out. The year started out well, and ended so cruddy. So much for things getting better. Trying to keep a bright outlook, but it just keeps raining.

I am so damn tired. So worried. I hope next year brings about a little break.

Been Far Away For Far Too Long

No sabes cuanto te extrano....

In Need of Time

This does it... I've had all this time to compare TN to VA... Frankly, I don't like it much over here. Don't get me wrong, it's a nice place, calm, a safer place with less "riff raff" as my dad calls it. But there is nothing here that catches my attention. Prospective employment for the future isn't as bright and shiny as I want it to be... Real estate in the area is still developing. Everything is so far away from each other. I'm not used to here, and I've been here almost 2 years now.

I know mom and dad would like us to stay close to them. That they like it here and are trying to give us the best they can. And they have. I love this house, it is home. I wouldn't trade it. But, as far as starting a career here, staying here for life... Not the place I want to be.

So, I guess for the time being I need to be here. I need to finish college, and get myself started. But once I'm done, I'm out lol. Probably move back over to VA with my sis. Can't be without her hehe, she is my shadow.

Blah, my grades aren't doing too well right now, but I'm workin' double now to bring em up. I don't think I was ready to go back to school yet. I feel exhausted, I need a vacation. I feel fatigued, like everything is piling up on me and I can't make it out before suffocating. But nontheless... I gotta make it through. I always do some way or another.

My trip to VA lasted so long while I was there, and once I came back here it felt like I only spent 2 seconds there. I already miss it there. My crazy friends, the freedom, the familiarity with the lifestyle over there, and of course Mike. Of course I won't miss my friend Becky's cat... Or any cat for that matter. Who knew a cat would make my eyes puff up like air bags lol. Allergies suck lol.

Good thing is, as long as I save money, I can go over there whenever I feel like it :O Completely shocked about the realization that I don't have to ask permission anymore.

Well, thank God it's Friday... School is on my nerves and I was dying for the weekend to come around. I hope you are all doing well :) Enjoy your weekend, and goodnight...

By the way, THANK YOU SO MUCH for bringin' Mike over V and for the ride :) Your girls are sooo adorable lol :P

Over n Out,
Zuli <3

Killing Time

Things I've learned about Me:

1-My car is my comfort zone
2-Nature relaxes me
3-I love rain but it makes me sad
4-I love blue skies they make me feel rejuvenated
5-The night time is the loneliest time in a day
6-I smile when I watch romantic movies
7-I resist change, even though I'm open to new things
8-I love driving, it makes me feel free
9-I don't like being alone
10-I am not afraid to present infront of an audience
11-I hold onto the past for too long
12-I like taking risks
13-I am persistent, too persistent for my own good
14-I am my own worst enemy
15-I am very sensitive
16-I love the major I am pursuing
17-I dream of a happy marriage
18-I am confident and insecure both at once
20-I'm bad at hiding my feelings, I used to be good at it
21-I like being different
22-I don't like being in my house, I feel down when I'm there
23-I love poetry and art
24-I believe that things happen because God knows we are strong enough to get through them
25-Life is worth living

Not All Is Lost

It's the first morning in more than 2 years, that I've rose out of bed and thought of you... and couldn't smile. My fears and sadness did not fade away as I slept, I felt myself think about it all in my sleep.

It's the first night in all this time, that I didn't stay by my cell phone.

Does this mean that we will grow apart now? Is there such a thing as destiny?

Time takes pleasure in kicking our asses. So what... do I just need to give it all time? Days... Months... Years... How long will this piercing in my chest dwell inside me? How long will the weakness I feel in my body persist? How much longer will achieving a smile feel almost impossible? How much longer will my hopes run on tears?

These tears are what push you further and further away from me. The more I reveal myself to you the more you run away. But who do I run to, who do I seek to soothe me? I alone am certainly not enough. The pillow I hug when I cry is not enough. My sister's stern words only unglue me more... And you... how does your meer presence calm me so, and at the same time break me down?

When I think of all I've said to you... We see the world in such different ways. I've always known what I've wanted and needed... But you... You wander the world in the dark, trying to find truth where there is no light to reveal it. You live thinking that you are alone and for some reason I feel like you prefer it that way. So you won't have to break down when someone leaves or when things are difficult. You don't share what really is inside you with anyone, and I was lucky that you shared with me. We've grown in such different environments, what you see as life and what I do... are totally different visions.

Back to square one now I guess. I'm trying hard to remember how to be just your friend. The thing is, I've always said things like, "love you lots", given you big hugs in the hallway. I've always meant them too. I remember calling you and just talking about Melee, or Janet, or what you were doing. We'd write poems and share them. You'd talk to me about your family and I'd talk about mine. Back to square one then... if that is where we must be.

"Anytime"
Anytime you feel like you just can?t hold on
Just hold on to my love and I?ll help you be strong
But you?re so afraid to lose,
and baby I can?t reach your heart
I can?t face this world that?s keeping us apart
When I can be the one to show you
Everything you missed before
Just hold on now,
cause I could be the one to give you more
Let you know
Anytime you need love baby I?m on your side
Just let me be the one I can make it alright
I can make it alright
Anytime you need love baby you're in my heart
I can make it alright
I look into your eyes,
and I feel it coming through
And I can?t help but want you more than I want to
So baby take all of your fears,
and cast them all on me
'Cause all I ever wanted was just to make you see
That I could be the one to give you
All that you?ve been searching for
Just hold on to my love,
and baby let me give you more
You know, anytime
Anytime you need love baby I?m on your side
Just let me be the one I can make it alright
Anytime you need love baby you're in my heart
I can make it alright
And now there?s no way out
And I can?t help the way I feel
'Cause baby you?re the fire and I?ll be waiting right here
You know my love is real,
Anytime you need love baby I?m on your side,
you know
Just let me be the one I can make it alright
Anytime you need love baby you're in my heart
I can make it alright

End of month update

A little late to address your last comments huh? Sorry about that... Things have been somewhat hectic.

Well... Yadi came out of surgery ok, having some ligaments cut and some folds removed. She is in a bit of pain and all but I have been a good nurse lol. Yesterday was kind of funny. We took her brace off so she could change the bandaids and she turned blue and almost passed out hahaha.

As far as school... I have done some major slacking... Gotta change. Yeah... I am definately gonna do my all to graduate soon. I am bright and intelligent and capable, there is nothing I can't handle.

I feel like I am NOT a child anymore. Like I do have a say about what I want. I can do anything I want to do. I don't have to be afraid of mom and dad anymore. I made peace with mommy and daddy, said sorry for all the things I have done wrong. Things that have eaten away at my conscience for more than two years now.

well... my homework is piled to the ceiling. Yadi is getting surgery on both of her knees next week. And I just realized... that I stand no chance of graduating in 2008 like I wanted to... Looks like I will be just like everyone else, 2009.

Well... that was all. Just letting some of my wallowing thoughts out for the night. Onto homework.

bai

GOOD NEWS BABY

I will leave TN by car on Friday october 20th, and stay until Tuesday october 23 (I leave that day, by car again).

I know it isnt much time at all, but we have to find a way to get to each other in that period of time... I'm sorry it couldn't be longer :(

I love you baby :) MUAH!

<3 Me

Yay 4 days off!

That there... is the expression I had on my face for nearly the entire week haha. I have been sooo tired... I can't even imagine what it would be like to come home from work at night and have to cook and clean and take care of a family.

I have to say that I am happy and excited about going to this new school. I finally feel challenged. Sometimes I feel challenged to an overwhelming point, but thats ok, as long as I learn what I have to.

Thank heavens though, for this weekend coming up. A lovely 4 day weekend so I can work out the kinks of a long hard week. A week of parking tickets, boring books, long nights of homework, shopping for school supplies, and taking care of business at home.

Oh criggles! lol (just made that word up...) Mommy just got home. I have to go and attend to her every wim.

Take care.

Locked and bolted... thoughts

So I feel swamped by the first week of school... I feel so tired, and I feel bad, because I feel like I havent really given him much time... And my mind is shut down most nights now, so I ramble a lot. What a horrible feeling...

Been 2 weeks already since you were here... Time goes by too friggin fast...

I have been wanting to write lately, about so many things, but when I got to my blog... I couldnt find words to put down. (It is happening right now again! aaaaaaaah!)

So I guess I will wait until my brain is about to explode with clear thoughts that I could write down...

Nearly 2 decades old.

On my birthday this year, my family came together in a way that hasnt happened in such a loong long time. At midnight people were knocking on my door to wish me a happy birthday. In the morning my dad was telling stories about when I was born... Finally at noon, they surprised me with a lovely chocolate cake, 19 candles, and ice cream. I noticed that I forgot to make a wish. And now that I think of it, I was so happy I didnt have anything to wish for. I have all I ever wanted. So I got an xbox 360... A bottle of spray deodorant -(long story... lol, no no, I dont have a stench or prespiration problem...), 2 cards, and a gift card to Victoria's Secret. Not to mention a free dinner at Provino's (fabulous italian restaurant). We spent the day in the pool in our backyard just relaxing all 5 of us together. Playing catch and hot-potato with a basketball lol.

For the first time in 19 years, it did not rain a single drop on my birthday... There was thunder though. Wierd huh?

Anywho... it's late. Night world :)

Inspired to Post

After a month's worth of re-decorating, we finally completed 4 rooms of the house!

The first being, the "Valentine room"... The red and peach and beige room. With help from Yadi and daddy, I added the persian rug and it sort of tied everything together in that room. For a while I thought it was missing something, and I think that rug made the difference...

The second is the kitchen, that went from a muddy yellow to a warm pumpkin color that blends with our granite countertops.

The third being Yadi's room. OH MY GOODNESS, my sister is incapable of making decisions. We walked around target for about 2 hours, only in the bedding section, just looking for covers and decor for her. She is picky too, I just never realized just how picky. But she chose that and I got to choose the wall color and I donated my bedroom furniture to her. Made her a little day window complete with a cushion, curtains and blinds for privacy. Made wall decor with dishes from target, GOSH I LOVE THAT STORE, cant you tell? lol So the dull green color that once darkened her room are gone, and her room is bright and cheery. She isnt depressed by darkness anymore, Im tellin' you it was getting to her.

And last but not least, Jorge's room. He was in PR til now and we did a sort of "While You Were Out" thing lol. His room was green too, with black and beige curtains and no theme. So we cleaned out his room, (I mean, we exterminated dust mummies), bought new sheets and stuff, painted some frames blue and cream, and painted his walls. He came back today, and he loved it! Hopefully it will stay clean.

Wanna know the kicker? It only cost 250 bux total, for all 4 rooms! I am so happy. Cant wait to dec out my room and the terrace! Now all dad needs to do is get the hardwood flooring he wants and the house will be perfect! :)

Ok, am I boring you? Sometimes I get carried away with this stuff, I love decorating(it's become my passion). I mean, I may not be a designer or anything, but we all have to start somewhere right?

Well, Im out, I hope youz are doin great :)

night <3

The hallway to J's and Y's room and the kids's TV room

Jorge's room- blue, cream, and white

The fish on the door is Jorge's first piece of pottery artwork.

Pix of Yadi's room- Powder blue walls, burgundi, peach, red and white accents :)

Happy Birthday Baby <3

What is it that kept me sane at night before you? I never had someone to talk to, the way I can talk to you. It feels like so long since you came into my life, yet, it feels like just yesterday we met in that sorry little bus lol. I can't seem to remember what I was back then, before us I mean. Who knows why it me took so long to realize that the perfect man was right there, in the seat behind me.

I remember being in love with love. In love with the idea of someone to care for, to share with... someone to devote my heart and mind to. Someone who needed me, someone I needed too. I remember the times I cried because the guys I'd set my eyes on, always seemed to see through me. Pass me by like I was never even there. Back then, the world seemed so empty, because there was no one who'd have wanted to hold me close, no one who missed me, nobody who wanted to be with me for me.

I remember the times I swore my heart had been broken, but the truth is... the tears I shed before you, weren't caused by heartache. I'd been crying lonely tears all that time.

I've asked myself a million times why I've been so excited about your birthday, counting the days til today. I'm just glad you exist and that you came into my life. I am sorry I couldn't be with you today, but I will be there soon enough. I'll find a way there, I miss you so much. I love you so much.

Happy birthday sweetheart <3

Yours forever,
Zulen
{tu gordita ;)}

APOLOGY TO MY BABY

WOW.... It seems, or I just noticed, that I havent felt jealous for a long time... I felt that burn a couple of days ago, the little green flames dwelling in the pit of my stomach... And in the midst of thought, I logged on to myspace, and realized... MOST OF THE GUYS ON MY FRIENDS LIST EITHER HAD A CRUSH ON ME, OR HAVE A CRUSH ON ME!!!! What in heavens name was I thinking?! How rude and stupid of me!!!! :@ Your words rang in my head like sirens baby... "You can be naive."

I just wanted to say that I am sorry baby, and I took every single one of them off... Except for Scott lol, who has bigger boobs than I do, and my gay best friend, and you and jason....

I am sooo sowee baby! I love you! MUAH!

Pics from back hom

Atlanta GA, on my way to PR
Abuela being funny lol
grandpa telling stories
Floating? La gordita tanning lol ;)
My grandma's birds. Princessa and Pichi
I call it the Valentine colored room.
From Right to Left: Yadi, Me, And Chubaca lol
Home sweet home
My grandma's plants

Summer 06

Well... for the past 6 days I was at my little
island in the Caribbean. My mom and sis were
down there since May and on Saturday called and
sent for my bro and I. So Jorge is still in PR
until 7/22 and I left yesterday because being a
girl at grams's house is difficult. Why? Because
my grandma expects more out of a woman than out
of a man. I remember one summer, Jorge got to go
and play in the B-ball court and I got stuck
watching Laura at home because "las mujeres no
salen a jugar con los hombres." Then there was
the entire summer, me washing dishes and mopping
and sweeping and dusting and polishing and
tidying, and gardening because thats what women
do... while Jorge rode his bike, and played and
had a ball. Isnt that a great way for a 14 year
old girl to spend her summer vacation? So
needless to say I am traumatized lol.

Grandpa got back from the hospital (I tell you,
service in hospitals in PR is incredibley
ROTTEN... Actually, service in most places in PR
sucks.) My grandma I guess has been nervous
because her other half got sick and she is
afraid of losing him. So she has been
impossible. She gets on his case for everything.
They are always arguing. But it'll pass once she
adjusts. After 53 years of marriage, those two
are nothing without each other. They are almost
like one person. Grandma depends on grandpa for
nearly everything. And grandpa needs grandma the
same. I was also amazed that after that many
years together, grandma still gets jealous lol.
She doesnt like the neighbors because she thinks
one of them flirts with him, the other one is
young and my grams knows my gramps has eyes, and
the other one has been after my gramps for more
than 40 years (since they lived in NY and my mom
was a baby.) LOL, I think they are adorable.

Grandma told me what marriage is. Basically a
cycle, she says that is why rings are part of
the wedding. In the beginning, you are so in
love and selfish for each other. You want to
give each other the world and be together all
the time. Then you have kids, and many marriages
dont work out because the man goes to work, and
the woman works and comes home to the kids...
That divides the wife's attention from the kids
to the man and it causes probs because all of a
sudden her time and attentions arent all for
him. She says that the only way it can work is
if the man is considerate and understands and is
helpful and supportive. And then the kids leave,
and youre alone with each other again and you
have time to fall in love like before again and
be selfish for each other. I never envisioned it
that way, but its a beautiful thing :)

Can you believe I was there and it rained so
much that I didnt get to go to the beach. If the
beach wasnt 7 hours away I would go... THAT
BLOWS!!!! I did however, get to go to the pool,
and tanned like crazy :D I had an awesome
time :)

I think I also helped my bro. See, he had this
idea in his tiny litte head that God didnt
exist. So I told my grams and she and my mom
talked to him for hours about it. Good news is,
he believes again.

I got a new wardrobe too :) happy about that.
Sad to say though, that I am porkier than ever.
*sigh, I wonder when it happened. When did I
gain all this weight? I didnt notice how I was
changing until one day when I looked in the
mirror and was horrified. I need discipline....
:(

Oh and today was a crazy day for me lol. first i
sprained *is that how its spelled?* my ankle.
Then we are about to get a pool and it hasnt
rained for a bit more than a month and it rains
as soon as I get back. And there is now a moth
in my bathroom and HOW THE HELL DID IT GET IN MY ROOM?!?!?!?! lol,

Well, I leave you with some pics from the trip.
Take care :)

My favorite room in the house and my favorite instrument.
My little family.

My 8th grade grad pic.
Me looking like the kid from the Omen... (thanks for the comparison babe lol)
The room I'm almost done decorating.

My Only Love- I like the lyrics of this song.

My Only Love- Lyrics

Deep in my soul,
Love so strong,
It takes control.

Now we both know,
The secret's bared,
The feeling shows.

Driven far apart,
I make a wish
on a shooting star.

And there will come a day,
Somewhere far away,
In your arms I'll stay,
My only love,

Even though your gone,
Love will still live on,
The feeling is so strong,
My only love...

My only love.

And there will come a day,
Somewhere far away,
In your arms I'll stay
My only love

You've reached the deepest part,
Of the secret in my heart,
I've known it from the start,
My only love,

There will come a day,
Somewhere far away,
In your arms I'll stay,
My only love,

You've reached the deepest part,
Of the secret in my heart,
I've known it from the start,
My only love,

My only love.

And that wraps it up for today :)  

HAHAHAH, one too many starburst huh baby?  

Tired? I love this pic! 

MIKEY! 

Wearin babez's shirt! lol