Locked and bolted... thoughts

So I feel swamped by the first week of school... I feel so tired, and I feel bad, because I feel like I havent really given him much time... And my mind is shut down most nights now, so I ramble a lot. What a horrible feeling...

Been 2 weeks already since you were here... Time goes by too friggin fast...

I have been wanting to write lately, about so many things, but when I got to my blog... I couldnt find words to put down. (It is happening right now again! aaaaaaaah!)

So I guess I will wait until my brain is about to explode with clear thoughts that I could write down...

Nearly 2 decades old.

On my birthday this year, my family came together in a way that hasnt happened in such a loong long time. At midnight people were knocking on my door to wish me a happy birthday. In the morning my dad was telling stories about when I was born... Finally at noon, they surprised me with a lovely chocolate cake, 19 candles, and ice cream. I noticed that I forgot to make a wish. And now that I think of it, I was so happy I didnt have anything to wish for. I have all I ever wanted. So I got an xbox 360... A bottle of spray deodorant -(long story... lol, no no, I dont have a stench or prespiration problem...), 2 cards, and a gift card to Victoria's Secret. Not to mention a free dinner at Provino's (fabulous italian restaurant). We spent the day in the pool in our backyard just relaxing all 5 of us together. Playing catch and hot-potato with a basketball lol.

For the first time in 19 years, it did not rain a single drop on my birthday... There was thunder though. Wierd huh?

Anywho... it's late. Night world :)