Drained

My life, I've concluded... is more dramatic than a soap opera...

I feel like there is just so much going on, I can only try and zone out...

*sigh... Abuelita Nene is weak with cancer... Her surgery will determine life or death. She said she'd come live with us if she makes it through... And it broke my heart, what she said after... That if she didn't make it, she'd go to the moon and find out if it's really made of cheese. Or to jupiter so she could sit among the stars... I haven't seen her in so long, and I'd been angry with her for so long... I faded from her life for a while... pero en sus ojos, todavia soy su Reinta Mora.

Tia is recovering from a stroke and now has an infection of some sort and on top of that is paralyzed. Tio's in an institution, after having killed his lover and tried to kill himself. Meri, my cousin is borderline heart attack, she is trying hard to take care of Tia, but she has issues at home in Fl and isn't really healthy to begin with.

Grandpa has an ear infection and is really sick and can't even walk... Spends his day puking. Mom and dad are both in PR trying to help everyone, and they are exhausted.

Grams and Gramps refuse to move up here. But PR is more and more crumby as the years go by. It's no place to live. It's hard to take care of them when they are so far away...

I'm almost 95% sure that I failed geography class. And it's my fault my sis isn't graduating when she wanted to.

Nothing... seems to be working out. The year started out well, and ended so cruddy. So much for things getting better. Trying to keep a bright outlook, but it just keeps raining.

I am so damn tired. So worried. I hope next year brings about a little break.