The Sun Hasn't Shone Yet Today

Gotta go to school in a few. Long night last night, bad dream, woke up irritated. Feel like being alone for just a few hours. The irritability isn't subsiding... actually its elevating.

Maybe I do take things too lightly. Maybe some things don't have solutions. I've never been one to look at the dim side. And somehow I feel forced to and it brings me down. Still I can't let go of the notion that there isn't anything I can't do. I can't let go of the thought that nothing ever resolves if no one is willing to talk about things or listen.

I feel so blah right now. I've always said the way I feel, the things I think. Lately I'm just afraid to say any of it. The effects of my verbalization bring about consequences I can't readily deal with. It ends in passive aggression and sweeping under the rug. That's just not my style.

Maybe I should just subdue my instincts and allow each day to play out on its own.