Im thinking right now about my mistakes and accomplishments. I notice how the bad things always seem to stand out over the good things. Ive made 2 MAJOR mistakes in 17 years, by breaking the trust my parents had for me. I did learn so much from those mistakes and my past actions have made me a better person. The scars left in me by my mistakes remind me what I need to do differently than a year ago. I will not let anyone take advantage of me ever again, or believe in people blindly.

I feel like I will be a successful adult, not only in my career, but at home. I graduated high school 6 months before time, and got into college before my class. I was so proud. By the end of this year, I should have 18 official credits from college, a few of which will transfer to my next college (although I should have 22 in total). I have regained my parents's trust in me, and am ready to go out and become independent step by step. I cant believe I will start paying rent, grocery shopping, bills, work... Handling so many things I didnt have confidence that I could do.

But I find myself inspired and motivated to do well. To start studying towards my career, now at 18. I want to make my family proud, I want to make my babez proud, and be worthy of him, I want to make my friends proud, and I want to be proud of myself and fulfill my dreams. I have so much going for me, and suddenly I feel strong and ready to take on so many challenges and learn about life, about my career, about myself.

I wont let my fears get in my way, because being afraid only keeps you from going out there and taking advantage of opportunity. In VA, the memory of my mistakes dwells. I cant help but think that I could bump into people that have hurt me in the past, but I have turned a blank page of my life. I am not who I was anymore, and they cant hurt me again.


Well, those are my thoughts. write later :)