Every Night

I don't know how to rate this year. So far I'm afraid of what's to come.

I've always wanted to grow up so fast, to get things done so that I can do the things I dream of. So that I can go home. And I still do. Only I didn't realize that growing up was so painful. I see things now around me that make me hurt. I feel the pain of those I love, and it wounds me. I feel like my writings are repetitive, but I just don't know how else to handle this uselessness. I can do nothing to help...

Every tomorrow is even more eerie than the next. I feel uneasy. I'm in an unstable state of mind, and the slightest breeze pushes me closer to the edge. How can anyone depend on such a vulnerable person? Everyone around me sees how weak I am. How ironic. I thought once, that I could take ANYTHING on.

All I can do now, is pray. So I will send up my prayers every single night. I will pray for everyone to be all right. I will pray for the sun to shine, and the clouds to disappear. I will pray for the bad times to fade quickly, and for endurance. I will pray. So even if tomorrow seems dark, I will light a candle and hope that those I pray for find the light I've wished upon them. I will pray that I can find means to facilitate their journey through the storm.