"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same" -

Totally out of character. What happened to the me who never took anything from anyone? I used to stand so tall, I used to stand up for myself. And one morning I woke up, and I saw in the mirror a weak little girl who brought me down and wouldn't leave me alone. But no more. That girl is dead.

And it may take time to change. I didn't choose this path. I didn't choose this disappointment. It was chosen for me. And I won't linger anymore. I deserve so much more than this disillusion. And with this new year... I'll welcome a new me. I'll be my new love.

I'll go wherever the current may take me...

Update

OK... Long time no post. Been hectic people lol, time goes by too fast when you need it to just stop for a while so you can git r done.

Well, I LOVE MY NEW JOB. I work at a "sandwich" place near school. It's awesome. My 3rd day at work, Im already ringin sales and laughin and playin around with everyone else :D Hopefully I can save up some $$$$ so I can do as I please with it :) I can't stress how bad I felt taking so much money from papi.

WEeEelL... I'm off to ship my old laptop back to dell, spend time with the papi, and it's a beautiful day here in the Tennessee valley, so I think I am goin out to play ;)

Hope you all are doin well :) I know I haven't been an active blogger or "myspace-er" lol. Sorry about that... Enjoy ur weekend, I iz OWT!

<3 Me

Drained

My life, I've concluded... is more dramatic than a soap opera...

I feel like there is just so much going on, I can only try and zone out...

*sigh... Abuelita Nene is weak with cancer... Her surgery will determine life or death. She said she'd come live with us if she makes it through... And it broke my heart, what she said after... That if she didn't make it, she'd go to the moon and find out if it's really made of cheese. Or to jupiter so she could sit among the stars... I haven't seen her in so long, and I'd been angry with her for so long... I faded from her life for a while... pero en sus ojos, todavia soy su Reinta Mora.

Tia is recovering from a stroke and now has an infection of some sort and on top of that is paralyzed. Tio's in an institution, after having killed his lover and tried to kill himself. Meri, my cousin is borderline heart attack, she is trying hard to take care of Tia, but she has issues at home in Fl and isn't really healthy to begin with.

Grandpa has an ear infection and is really sick and can't even walk... Spends his day puking. Mom and dad are both in PR trying to help everyone, and they are exhausted.

Grams and Gramps refuse to move up here. But PR is more and more crumby as the years go by. It's no place to live. It's hard to take care of them when they are so far away...

I'm almost 95% sure that I failed geography class. And it's my fault my sis isn't graduating when she wanted to.

Nothing... seems to be working out. The year started out well, and ended so cruddy. So much for things getting better. Trying to keep a bright outlook, but it just keeps raining.

I am so damn tired. So worried. I hope next year brings about a little break.

Been Far Away For Far Too Long

No sabes cuanto te extrano....