Sometimes I feel a little overwhelmed. Between making sure I'm doing what I have to do at home, keeping my job, and getting back in gear for school... AAH!! It's such a short list, but the things I do seem immensely large.
I guess I'm playing hard ball now at work. I hope I don't lose my job. Ever since I took the lead position, I'm very wary of who I make friends with. I noticed how jealous Carlos is of me. He hired me with Oscar initially. At the time, he was the only supervisor. He is 31 and has 3 kids. You can tell when he speaks that he isn't very smart. Imagine the shock he felt when 3 months after I start working there I replace him as Lead Super... Someone at work told me he cried the day it happened. But I do notice snippy comments from him. I notice how insecure he is about his job. No one in the company really likes him. His forte lies in excel spreadsheets. The other day I out did him on one... And I'm a beginner. I guess he felt cornered. I showed him my spreadsheet and he tried to make changes. I said very nicely "no no no, wait wait wait wait." Somehow this compelled him to slam his fists on the desk and storm to his cube and shout at me "If you had just shut the hell up!" At this point, I was angry and the only thing I could say was "How dare you!? Don't you dare start that with me now, sit down!" I called my manager and instead of handling this accordingly, he calls Carlos behind my back and tells him a mere, "don't do that again" and lets him off the hook because he admitted to what he did (though he only admitted it because everyone saw him do it.) This further pissed me off. So I called the company CEO and told him. Today I wrote Carlos up. I saw the anger in his face. He looked like he was going to cry. But these men need to know that just because I'm young, and a girl that they can't just brush me off like I don't matter. Needless to say, I am pretty sure I have a couple of new enemies at work. Oh well. I do my job and I do it well. As long as I do that, I should be fine. I just paid for our school books.
I really need the reimbursement from our grant. I am REALLY tight with money now. Just thinking about it makes me panic. I mean I know I will be fine. I just don't like to feel like I'm in a tight spot. Rent is due tomorrow and I just paid our books. UGH... I have to do groceries on Thursday. Let me just stop thinking about it.
This makes me wonder though. I fired a lady today. She was receiving government assistance. She got free cab rides and everything. But she was one of those people who thrive off of their unfortunate circumstances. She constantly asked for money and free give-aways. Her boyfriend doesn't work... He just took her 2 and 5 year old daughters to the stop sign of a 4 lane intersection and held up a sign in the hot sun that said he was unemployed and needed help. How can you exploit your children like that.. Get a damn job! If I can do it, so can you! Her 2 year old was wearing the same clothes for a week... They had lice...
My gosh,, if I had kids, I would do anything and everything to keep them living well so they wouldn't be missing anything. I'm waiting for Mike to get out of class. I got out at 6:45 but I thought I'd wait for him to get out. I miss him during the day. It's nice to know he is so close. There is so much to write about... But this keyboard is making my fingers hurt. I guess I'm used to the laptop keyboard. Well, that's a wrap!
G'night pplz <3>
Z.L.T.
