3 days...

Baby, This weekend was the craziest I ever had. StIlL a LiTtLe ShY tHo... :$ You are sitting right here in my TV room, watching life with mikey, (Michael J Fox). I dont want you to go, I wish I could go with you. I hope you enjoyed urself. I missed you so much. I miss you already. Im gonna die b4 the next time I see you. Im staring at u from the other side of the room. You look real bored. I just wanna go over there and kiss you and hold you and not let u go home. But now reallity kicks in. Your dad is callin you. Bai baby. Te amo. :'(

So you just left, :'(... i feel like crying. Damnit, baby, come back to me. I want you to stay with me always. I love you mi amor. I love you so much. I love you.

I just want to

I just want to stay by you forever,
Kiss your tender lips,
Keep what I endeavor.

I wanted it to be just u and i
caught up in the moment,
and never have to say good bye

I just wanted more each second
I crave your heat, your touch
I didnt want it to ever end

I just want to keep you always
Feel the way your heart makes mine whole
Love you this way, for all the rest of my days.

I just want your love forever
never alone, always together.

Insomnia, ya think? LOLz

So its 1:16 in the am, ive done many things today besides playing in the snow. But yesterday comes before today, so I figure Ill write about that first. Went to school, I have a first draft due on friday for english. I got back home and had to go drop off my sister's car keys at her house asap so killed two birds with one stone and went to michaels to get sum supplies I need for drawing class. Here is the big problem, I left my money at home and bought about 5 things with 60 dollars. Sigh, Im poor... Not to mention, about a week ago, someone was shot at that store. No it isnt a dangerous neighborhood, things happen sumtimes. Anyway, I got home after dark, I was really missing my baby. I was also very excited about the foecast for snow! So today came, the snow started in the am, and didnt accumulate much til noon. about 3 inches i think. i played in it a bit, but i like to be warm so i came inside and called my baby again. I really miss him. I gave my stinky dog a bath, and cooked. Baked zitti just to give details. It was pretty damn good. So i watched sum tv, and watch I Robot, not a bad movie. At 10 pm, I went to my room and called my baby again. Gosh I really miss him. He had to go, :S :-/ :'( Not allowed. So I finished the laundry, and cleaned my room and started on my homework. Got done by 1 am. Still not sleepy, all I can think of is him, and how badly I wanna see him. Did I mention I miss him? Just playin, I hope to see him this saturday. I hope... Well, this entry is gettin long. I guess Ill write sum other time. talk to ya later. baiz. I love you mi niño. MUAH!

Only 16 of the things I love about you, out of the millions on my list.

I love the way you look at me,
and the way you always care,
I love the way you hold me,
and the way youre always there.
I love the way you talk to me,
The way you always smile,
I love the way you comfort me,
and the way youre so worth while,
I love the way you understand me,
the way youre in my soul,
I love the way you need me,
the way youre love cant be sold,
I love the way you trust in me,
and how I can believe in you ,
I love the way you love me,
and the way I love you too.

I miss you mi bebito

so i am here, at 11:02, talking to my baby. tired as hell, but missing him. I miss u mi bebito. te amo! muah!

So many, too many.....

Sleepless night last night was, I was born a thinker. I wonder why Im not a great mind like one of the philosophers of the past. I have this uneasy feeling, and I have yet to understand it. Pensive in the dark, searching my thoughts for some clarity, and though I pondered my mind for hours last night, I was unable to find any of the clarity to comfort me. I fell in love, and intense feelings grow stronger each and every day. I seek his voice every moment and through there find joy and a soothing feeling that rids me from me; me, my absolute worse enemy. Maybe its only natural to feel the way I do, this nameless feeling that I have never before encountered. It isn't fear, anger, or even uncertainty. It isn't depression or bitterness. So what is this thing that lurks in my head, haunting my thoughts while Im alone? So many questions left unanswered, so many I dare not ask. So many that make no sense, so many, too many. One question answered, perhaps the most difficult question to answer, "who is the one that loves me?" So why after discovering who my heart belongs to, am I having trouble uncovering the mysteries behind these questions. These small questions that shouldn't even present a problem for me. These questions that I still have not found words to ask them with. These questions that I may never find the words to ask with. Perhaps at a later time, I will figure these inquiries out on my own, without ever having to speak a word of them. One day I'll know, until then, I will just have to work on keeping them from driving me mad, because, so far, they are doing a splendid job at it.